fucking remember my fucking girlfriend you stupid fucking brain
having derealization is like literally the worse thing ever i swear. you just never ever have a normal day where everything looks and feels normal. ever. i would much prefer a terminal illness honestly
are any of u gonna comment of how much of a cutie my girlfriend is or am i just gonna sit here
I completely hate my life right now lol. from the amount of panic and trauma this ordeal had caused me I don’t know how I’ll ever truly recover. even after I’ve healed from my mental health problems (if I heal that is) I don’t see how I’ll ever return to normal. I seem normal on the surface but my brain is a complete wreck. literally every moment of my day is worrying. I worry about absolutely everything, and then I always think they’ve come true. earlier on I was gonna eat some nice food then I started to get paranoid and anxious that I wouldn’t like it. I didn’t really enjoy it after that, it was just like eating tasteless mush. it’s amazing how intrusive thoughts can mess with everything. people talk to me but I never really take in what they say because I’m too busy worrying, it really sucks. the only reason I’m managing to go on with my life os because I keep thinking that recovery is just around the corner and I’ll be better in a few days. three months later and I have no idea how long it will really be, of ever.